Disordered faith

Matthew 6:28–31 (NIV)
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’

Whenever Jesus gets to that phrase… “you of little faith”… (and he does it a lot)… I feel small. How come I don’t have enough faith?

Part of it is because I have a disordered faith. I am looking at faith from a wrong angle. Faith is not “believing enough” so we get what we want or we get our prayers answered the way we asked. Faith is living in obedience to God’s will with the assurance that he will ultimately fulfill for us what is in our best interest.

We have little faith because we have little relationship.

When Jesus is talking about faith it is never tied to possessions or material supply. In the Kingdom of God, faith is attached to relationship.

If I am worried about “stuff” in my life, or provision in my life, or an answer to prayer, it’s because I don’t trust my King.

If I don’t’ trust him, it’s because I don’t know him.

We trust who we know.

Lord, help me in my disordered faith.