I want to know the feeling of “dying” for something different. By that I mean having a desperation for something that is just more. A place where I get beyond the internet fascinations of whatever is being discussed in the moment… and the tirades… to the possible. Not the possible of what can be done in human terms, but what is possible in the Kingdom of God.
These words from Paul to the Corinthians are soaking into my heart right now:
6 What we say is wisdom to people who are mature. It isn’t a wisdom that comes from the present day or from today’s leaders who are being reduced to nothing. 7 We talk about God’s wisdom, which has been hidden as a secret. God determined this wisdom in advance, before time began, for our glory. 8 It is a wisdom that none of the present-day rulers have understood, because if they did understand it, they would never have crucified the Lord of glory! 9 But this is precisely what is written: God has prepared things for those who love him that no eye has seen, or ear has heard, or that haven’t crossed the mind of any human being. 10 God has revealed these things to us through the Spirit. The Spirit searches everything, including the depths of God. (1 Cor. 2:6-10)
And this thought:
I am dying for something different. To serve the margins of society regardless of what the “left” or the “right” say about it. To do something wonderful to BLESS my community and my schools, rather than slinging verbal grenades at what is “wrong” with my community or schools. To work with and in another nation where I can contribute something to them… and they to me. To see radical, wonderful things happen to and for my Muslim friends as I pray for them during this Ramadan.
I am dying for something different. Beyond the vapid rhetoric slinging around in front of me. To hear the mind of Christ… to know the mind of Christ.
I am dying for something different!